dang! been months since made a new one but still alive

work got me so busy that kinda left me a bit drained doing my own shit!

got already a list on the pipeline but EEK! its growing

LIFE = well like what most people say and i agree ....IT SUCKS and still making the most of it tho!

hopefully could finish at least one soon enough



On the side I went back to reading one of my fav authors Charles De Lint yay!

Yay! finally got myself a new toy to play with and get back on some of my stuff that I had left or probably make new ones. An Intuos 3 6x8 (A5) tablet! Was planning to get it in a few months BUT got pushed earlier coz really need to stir away from what's bothering me for a while now which got me so miserable and cant get a decent sleep (up to now). Cost me $300NZ kinda not bad for a 2nd hand and with limited use. Tight on money but worked something out in getting a tablet.

Working too much in my new line of work got my eyes doing overtime and had recently went to have it examined and will be wearing glasses in a couple of weeks *sigh*.

Now got to get on with new stuff and uploading it soon!

my quote for the day:
"At times I wish I could change the past...but sometimes the past changes you"

So far the past week was my worst week! And still feeling crap! Gonna be a while til I get over this *sigh*. Not a friggin day passed without me thinking of "it". Keeping my mind busy BUT someone/something triggers it back and just wanna scream! Now am ranting yet again here *pffft*

Got one piece made and going for my second one. Gave my self a enough time to finish it unless unforseen circumstances prevents me for making it.

bah!

Finally one piece after a loooong break!

So many things happened good/bad/worse(?). Still feeling crap! Probably will be for a while. Not kinda a good year to start (emotionally)...well that's life and nothing much we can do about it! Yes! It's hard! friggin hard! Have not a decent sleep for a while *sigh* and seems not getting any better at the moment *sigh again*

This week was so bad and nothing I can do but take it and tho it hurts it was really inevitable. The sooner the better? Maybe? Nothing really could be done and have to accept it (still hurts). Going back the good old days is really kinda hard (wished it really never happened). You're really special person to me! Will definitely miss the nice memories you gave me and will treasure that forever (seems like it was yesterday)! At first I really don't want to make that promise you have made me BUT to show you that I DO care I promised and will keep that. The pain I have to bare and probably in due time it will start to heal. Thank you so much for being a part in my life and sorry.

Terribly sorry for this journal coz need to discharge some of it.

...still no updates from my "unfinished" projects and looks like wont be starting on them soon *sigh* BUT got one am doing right now that will be dedicated to a very "special someone" and hopefully will get me back on track...